Ups and downs

Well, life goes on.

Been struggling trying to keep my head up and not overdue it. I'm not used to having my body reject me in such a way. Usually I can push it to any limit and still keep going but now I feel like I have this big block thats keeping me back and I hate it.

I hate being kept down. Im not gonna let it keep me down. Seems one day Im doing better and then next day Im doing worse. Gotta focus on the little things that keep me happy in the meantime...... driving the beast....BRILLIANT....thanks again Rory. Love bumping around in that old girl.... you really did a great job on that truck Rory. Dad would be proud to see that thing rolling the town.

Thinking about Dad lots, his Bday is coming up. I forget how old he'd be but that doesnt matter. Ror and I will go for a drive when I come down this Sat. to see Mum cuz she went for surgery.... smoke one for him and spend time with big Bro.

Hope Mum is doing good. Glad she is getting this chance to feel healthier and be happier. Ill do what I can to aid in the process. Sometimes I wished I lived in Kamloops still, to be with my family more but I hope they all understand. I do miss them. But Ive gotta do my own thing for a while longer I think.

But just gotta keep on truckin'.
Dad said....." No change, no growth."
Amen..... oh and Karma can still go fuck herself...... haha